Monday, September 18, 2006
bllahh bllahh bllahh~ haiishh..life's getting worse nowadays..and i'm seriously sick of it..feel like cutting and slashing AGAIN..[ liked what i used to do] but if i do that..i'll be a promise-breaker..i've promised people i wont cut..but i cant stand it..haish..why cant people just understand ? is it like so hard to understand ? i dont think so..right..? haish..what is wrong with guys nowadays ? or maybe..humans nowadays..they dont seem to know and understand anymore..life wasnt like this before..what happened to everyone ? those people i know who was so sweet, nice, understanding, trustable ? those days when i KNOW i AM HAPPY.. ? something went wrong..the earth turned square ? the earth is round..so dont treat people the way you wont wanna be treated..things will go back to you one day..sooner or later..treating people in a better way wont cost your life..its simple..haish but people just cant do it..i've smiled enough..now, things arent like last time anymore..humans criticise, they scream into your ears..they arent nice anymore..so i guess, i should stop being nice too..that makes it equal..and now..this word "FLIRT" have been out with a wrong meaning..
FLIRT
1. Noun- a seductive woman who uses her sex appeal to exploit men
2. Noun- playful behavior intended to arouse sexual interest
3. talk or behave amorously, without serious intentions; "My husband never flirts with other women"
4. Verb- behave carelessly or indifferently; "Play about with a young girl's affection"
so please, people..stop using this word without knowing the meaning..DONT MISUSE IT..
dont just call someone a flirt when he/she merely talked to guys/girls..or just hang out with guys/girls..if everyone who hangs or talks with the opposite sex alot is considered as a flirt, than who ain't one ? so please..be more mature and use the right word for the right thing..
hmm..i know, many people out there have been "misunderstanding" me as a flirt..so i guess, an explanation is needed..as many people said, having many exes or many ex steads are flirts..but please..it depends..people who break with non-logical reason and people who break with logical reasons are D-I-F-F-E-R-E-N-T..
explanation :
steadONE ] we lasted for 8 months..that guy..had to go aboard for further studies..so, we bo
bian have to break..and of cause both of us was damn sad..this is under a bo bian situation so i guess its a logical reason barhs..
steaddTWO] we lasted for 6 months..we were like so xing fu together..never even thought of breaking..but this onne ddae..sad enough, i found out that he smokes..i bet you wont wanna be with a smokerr too right..so i broke with that guy..its logical..please..nobody would wanna be with a smoker..
steaddTHREE] this guy break me..so nothing to explain on..
steaddFOURR] this stead is like a never before thing..this guy..asked for stead for alot of times..but i dont like him so obviously i will reject him..than this one day, my sister was playing with my handphone..than accidently and coincidently, that guy smsed me and ask for stead again..my sister was quite young so she just replied a "ok" without knowing the content in the sms..2 days later, i found out and break with him..it wasnt stead at all..but that guy want me to make him as my ex..so that he know he was my stead before and was contented with that..so i did that..it sounds stupid..i know..but it happened..
steaddFIVE] during the days when the guy is waiting for my answer, i went around asking infos on this guy and especialy asked about if he was a flirt..people say no..and we end up steading..but things went wrong..this guy liked other girl [ some people told me ] and things went clashing..people start telling me that this guy is a flirt..and most of them, was my go0d friends..i believed it, as actions shown..show me that rumours were somehow right..so i break..isnt it logic ? i bet you wont wanna be with a playboy/playgirl right ? i dont want to get myself hurt in the end..
steaddSIX] i thought that i could stead and understand this guy better while steading and somehow thats what the guy want me to do..[ MAYBE ] i took a long long time to consider..and its really alot of time..so i stead with this guy..things were ok at first..but after a while, i found out that we cant get along..i dont want this guy to get too "deep" into this relationship or else next time when things are ending, this guy will get hurt more..so i broke him..and just wanna stay as friends first..understand each other first before steading..it feels like i'm wrong cause i shouldnt have stead with that guy at first..but that guy have been jioing for quite a long time..and i was kinda like..touched ? so that explains my decision..
so after explaining, if you still thinks i deserve to be called a "flirt" , than be it..i wont argue with that since i've already done my part in explaining..and for the person who tags all those stuffs on my tagboard, please understand..i merely hang out with guys sometimes and talks often to them [ who doesnt? i talk to girls often too..does that make me a lesbian ?] doesnt make me a flirt..please..get it right..and hope you can sort things out without insults..
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when yore heart was mine ;
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