Thursday, September 28, 2006
the whole day..have been crying..over a A5-sized book..silly right ? but..its important to me..not only important it's VERY IMPORTANT..i didnt accept the fact that i've lost it till today..i really lost it..i cant find it anywhere..i've walked around the whole school and really the whole school yesterday with huiying..level by level, classroom by classroom..each and every dustbins..its not anywhere..its obvious that someone took it and went out of school with it..its all my fault..i left it in the atrium just for that little while and its gone..i regretted not bringing it with me..if i did, things would have turned out different..its my fault..haish..today..haish..the thought of my pink book makes me wanna cry..cried alot today..really alot..the whole day..i just couldnt stop..i cant hold back my tears..it just carry on..dripping..the whole day in class..not even a real smile could be seen on my face..im sorry huiying..making so sad all the while..sorry..i didnt mean to..i more sadder than all of you..i lost my baobeiPINKBOOK..you should know...i used up the whole packet of tissues i've got today and even tyngyuan's packet..i saw one of tyngyuan's book..it somehow looks abit like my old pink book..saw it..cry again..i didnt stop at all..haish..this is the worse and saddest thing i've ever gort in this year..sobbsobb..and thanks people..those who are willing to help, those who tried so much to help me find back my book, those who cared for me..thanks..thanks huiying, agnes, tyngyuan, kenneth, jianglong, xinglong, yangwei, chenpin, edmund, candy, uncle cheng, shingkun, ernest, peimin ETC..thanks..ii even asked cleaners, teachers, guard, students, passerbys, friends, aunties, uncles, OM..whoever i could find..but..nuthing's found..im missing my book..miissing it more and more each day..IF ONLY TIME COULD TURN BACK; IF ONLY I COULD REWIND TIME; IF ONLY I COULD UNDO WHAT HAPPENED. i regretted leaving my book there at the atrium without anyone watching it..haish..who the hell took my book ? kanina chhee bye narhs..so bo liao go take my thing..want de hua do things openly larhs..damn fucking annoyed by that act..whatever barhs..no matter what..will try my best to find de..like what yangwei say.."although it's hard to find it back... but.. no matter wad.. we will help to find de... dun feel so sad.... there's always miracle... right? " miracle..i have to be positive..a miracle might happen..so what if i am sad right ? i wont get back the book even if i am damn damn damn sad..i just have to wait..if that book is fated to come back..it will..if it's not, it wont..i cant do anything except find, wait..i'll try to start smiling again =] and that fucking cheebye idiot..you better dont let me know who you are..SUCKER..
YYY
when yore heart was mine ;
4:04 AM
